Feb. 2nd 2022
Day of the deuce – really needed this to be a better day than yesterday that was such a dark day for my heart. I know he probably didn’t really care for me, and I felt lost and lonely even when we were together so I am not sure why this hurts so bad – But God I wish I had more time with him.
But I got up and showered and I just put 1 foot in front of the other and made it to Food For Thought to get some work done. Ben and Sade joined me and we actually were working! I started planning some of my down South adventures I hope this new phase really allows me to let go of all of the things that don’t serve me. It’s so hard to accept change and be the change I need. I need to let go and let God.
After working in the café I came home quickly to clean because my first people were coming over! Sade, Briana, and my new friend Lindsie came over and I smoked them out. It was so beautiful to be with the women of color and all of us just vibing; we giggled and laughed on the balcony and had some really deep conversations which was so nice to be in a safe space and to know I am not alone.
It was hilarious to see both Lindsie and Sade run into the glass window in my apartment. Then I went on a hunt for street food fried chicken but no such luck so I ordered from Grab and got fried chicken and watched a little TV until bed.
Day of the deuce was truly a productive and beautiful day. Truly grateful for this community
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Miss Intl 